夏至未央

today i'd like to mark down one mistake.
i mistook the model No. and price for one item which is list on my quotation, the quotation is for a Gov. tender, i didn't realize it until  my customer ask me to issue proforma invoice for this item yesterday,it's really a big mistake,since i have quoted a low price for an high price  model,but thank god the bad beginning didn't lead to a bad ending as it use to be, i finally come over this happening,but we have to cut short our profit a lot in order to pay for it,we cut really big a lot.
i learn from this mistake that one should not be beat down by his own fear,not matter what happen,the first thing have to be done is to come down,and try figure out ways to solve problem,not just complain and doing nothing.
mistake is not awful,what really awful is your attitude towarz  it. 
i think i'm still not that strong as i  thought i was,i mark this mistake down for remind me to remember what i have done wrong and what i have learn from it.
there's an old chinese saying goes"经一事长一智"，i hope i can grow up a little and further my steps on the way to final growed up via this mistake.

 2 months later,bear finally work on wirting his second english blog,lazy ?may be.But,I don't think my lazy is kind of sin,like guy said,blog is just for fun,not for serious reports.I do very much agress with this.
Today is another tired busy day,normal day as usual,I must say,people who can see carrot in front of their heads are lucky,because we still have guys like me who can't see where the carrot is.It sounds sad ,but in fact it's really not that bad at all,i'm still trying my best to live full and try always look at the bright side of my entired life though i can't see where I am now and which way I should go later.
Everything can be fun and warm,no matter it's receiving letters from my customers inform that they have release the payment or it's just a good dinner from my lovely wife.
If you think you're happy,you're just happy.God is fair to every body,you smill to him then he will do just the same thing to you.
Life is never easy,we should always try seek fun from it : )
I'm thinking about change to a new job,a new job in a field that i don't  familiar with and even worse,i have few experience.
But this job is really attracted for it's jarless income,large enought vacation and a foreseeable increase bright future.
It's time for me to work hard to try meet the goal,hopefully i can finally get  there.
Ok,enought for today,lazy bear is time to off duty ~~by the way~today is the great wageday~hooray~~~~~~~

This is the first day wrting a diary in english, feel kind of strange,i guess may be i'm not yet ready for doing this thing.the idea of writing english diary flashed out my mind yesterday night, and i decide to try it, in fact ,i think the main reason push me to do this thing may be because i'm just wondering how long i can keep on this...
Hun....i must say..the first day is just as hard as i have imagined,cause i feel like i have been totally tied up with this unfamiliar language,i'm tring to handle it,but actually is it handling me..
Ok, time to off duty,remember  send the work diary to boss..i have already missed hand in my work diary for 3 days="=..

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现在在新的公司，午休时间，短暂的一小时，其中吃饭耗掉了大概半个小时，貌似眯一会午觉的愿望已经非常奢侈。。于是干脆决定不睡。。俺充分发扬铁人精神。要撑着眼皮直到下午六点。然后准时收拾东西下班，跟着大群下班的人流一道回家，吃饭，再然后赖在床上看电影看书发呆打滚。。。 忽然觉得自己开始在某种程度上的心如止水，不想去想什么，也不想去记得什么，自己就快变成了高中时代被自己唾弃的书呆子。只有在提及工作的时候才会一激灵的鲜活起来。。很可怕的自己。。或者这就是所谓的成长。。算了，管它。。懒得去想。。有活就干，有钱就领，有假就放，有时间就睡觉。。我可爱的出粮日。。你什么时候才能来到。。 懒得去想，懒得去管，懒得去记，懒得去联系，懒得去在乎。。一切只要维持现状就好。。简单的生活。简单的愿望。简单的活着。或许这才是我真正想要的东西。。也许只有学会对自己彻底的冷漠。。才能保护好自己不被伤害。。 目前的生活状态大概如此。。希望不要被认为已经行走在行近疯子的边缘。。